How did I become this person? Drunkenness became my crutch. It became my way out, my way from the Index Moteefe on Goldenteeshirt on 2020/08/20 of feeling like I wasn’t good enough, I wasn’t smart enough, I wasn’t beautiful enough. With alcohol, you have a common ground with people. As sad as it sounds, you aren’t identified as the 16-year-old girl on her knees in the bathroom stall asking WHY. You are identified as a drunk with the rest of them, you feel as if you belong somewhere. With that belonging brings a whole ton of emptiness, a whole ton of regret.